I broke up with Dave.
It was not an easy decision at all. I still care about him a lot and I thought very long and hard about my decision. I cried a lot. I hate hurting people and the last thing I want to do is hurt him. Ultimately it came down to two people who have very different personalities and who are at different places in their lives. I still think he's a great guy and I want him to be happy. He was very understanding and mature about the whole situation and I hope that we can still be friends, but that is his choice.
I'm having a hard time writing this post. Even though this was my choice I feel very alone and sad right now.