Feeling helpless.

Right now my mother's boyfriend is going through some very scary medical issues. There are still many tests to be done but from what my mother has told me things are not looking good. My mother is trying to keep it together the best she can but I can tell that she is a nervous wreck. I haven't talked to Tony but I can only imagine how scared he is.

I can't stop thinking about what's going to happen to both of them. Tony just retired. My mother just moved in with him this past spring and now they're facing surgery and chemo treatments. My mind keeps repeating over and over "This is not fair. This is not fair."

My mother has been through a lot. She's been happy with Tony and she deserves happiness. And then this happens. My mother talks to me as she would a friend. She's need that. I have to be strong for her but inside I feel completely helpless. I can say it's going to be ok a million times but those are just words. There's nothing I can do to make this ok and I hate that. I'm sure my mother feels the same way.

For now we sit and wait. We go about our lives as normal as possible until we find out exactly what we're dealing with. I know whatever I'm feeling about this situation must be multiplied ten fold for Tony, my mother and Tony's family. I promise to be there for any of them of they need me. What else can I do?